Cara Delevingne graces the cover of Vogue magazine and confirms that singer St. Vincent is her girlfriend. She also opened up about teenage depression and struggles with her sexuality and her love life, her decision to leave modeling for acting and more in a highly revealing interview.
The 22-year-old British model and actress is making headlines everywhere for confirming longtime rumors and speculation that she is dating indie singer-songwriter St. Vincent (real name Annie Clarke). And she is luminous on the cover of Vogue (photo below) for the first time ever.
She said of her relationship, “I think that being in love with my girlfriend is a big part of why I’m feeling so happy with who I am these days.” She went on to add, “And for those words to come out of my mouth is actually a miracle.”
Explaining the significance, she said, “‘It took me a long time to accept the idea, until I first fell in love with a girl at 20 and recognized that I had to accept it.”
She also said, “Women are what completely inspire me, and they have also been my downfall. I have only been hurt by women, my mother first of all.”
Contrasting her life now with her painful teenage years, she spoke of being 15 years old when ““All of a sudden I was hit with a massive wave of depression and anxiety and self-hatred.” She said that her “feelings were so painful that I would slam my head against a tree to try to knock myself out.” She went on to say, “I never cut, but I’d scratch myself to the point of bleeding. I just wanted to dematerialize and have someone sweep me away.”
She said she was put on drugs she described as “stronger stuff than Prozac” and also said that she “smoked a lot of pot” and also noted that therapy did not help either. She went on to say, “The worst thing was that I knew I was a lucky girl, and the fact that you would rather be dead . . . you just feel so guilty for those feelings, and it’s this vicious circle. Like, how dare I feel that way? So you just attack yourself some more.”
She also spoke about how difficult it was to leave modeling for a new career in acting. She is among the stars in the mystery-drama, ‘Paper Towns’ based on the novel of the same title by ‘The Fault in Our Stars’ author John Green. It’s her first major film role after a bit part in ‘Anna Karenina.’ She’ll also be seen in the much-anticipated ‘Suicide Squad’ due out next year.
She said, “I admit I was terrified to leave. I mean, the bubble gives you a kind of dysfunctional family. When you’re in it, you get it. And the second you’re out of it, you’re like, What the hell just happened?”
She went on to draw a contrast between the professions and said, “The thrill of acting is making a character real. Modeling is the opposite of real. It’s being fake in front of the camera.”
In giving such a quote-worthy interview the emerging actress has driven more than a few headlines and in the process spoken of subjects which still are perceived as off-limits for stars. We’ve seen more than a few actors and actresses leave the public guessing about their sexuality and then walking back remarks that seem to imply they have come out as gay, lesbian or bisexual. Notably, does not label herself, even as she is candid about her current relationship. She has certainly raised intrigue, of that we can be certain.
You can see interview excerpts here; the Cara Delevingne Vogue cover photo and behind-the-scenes video are below!
— Vogue Magazine (@voguemagazine) June 19, 2015
Pictures: PR Photos